Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

Madarbozorg was wearing parmida's sockes, when parry passed her, with out turning and looking back at her she just said, grandma, such a nice sockes!





madarbozorg looked at dad, when parmida wasn't around, and told him the story, without being even angry at her, she was even amazed that how smart par is,

This kid he didn't know me, he didn't even remember my name, althoughhe remember some stuff about me, that my mom was takeing courses with me, and I used to play on computer intead of studing! he asked for my mail and said maybe we can go out soem times I said well ok, he didn't send me email, till he saw me afteer a month or so, and he told em oh i forgot to send u mail!!!!!, and then he did, he also wrote his msn id and tomd me to added him, I didn't I just wrote back my msn id too, and i said i will add u,!( at first glance u will think that when he got my mail, he would have added me , but he didn't!) at 2nd mail he asked me for movie or dinner,....

I just realized How much I played game with k, maye be it would have been better that i would have asked him out directly, so much energy and time and ( magzhe khoodam va atrafianam) i would have saved that way!!!!!
ins hy boodanet maro koshteh marokoshte, maro koshte,
I wanted to asked me out, or I wanted to be 99% sure that he would have say yes, then i would asked him.
this is like handing in assignment late with the name of I want to work on it and make it sure every thing is write, when at the end, i will end up asking 101 ppl for help, and get frustrated about the answers and then haanding in qestions that i haven't find a convincing answer for it.

a good thing in life is we can learn form our experiances.......


although the same way as hanin in assignment on time wouldn't mean that i won't ask 101 ppl for help, or asking any x or y "directly- fast forward" out doesn't mean that they would say yes, I t just mean that i would have saved lots of time,

Today Dr. Reedyk got a prize for her research, ( this world looks so funny!!!!) she had such a nice presentation, that I got most of them, the one that i wasn't sleeping ( which feels very bad!!!) It was very primitive and underestandable, which make it very interesting. it even makes u feel like physcics is a very cool subject !
at the end of her presentation she had a thanx list, I saaw sudhakar's name and even Mark's name there, but I didn't saw mine, makes me feel a little jelouse and mostly unlikable and unvalued, I thought that all 2 summers of working here was'nt worthed as what mark did i and I was thinking that what i did so wrong, that makes it ignorable even comparing to mark. it was in the way that i even mention it to sudhakar when I saw him, that waw, Dr. Reedyk thanked u, for what u did, and he told me that ur name waas tehre too, I said no, I checck it wasn't and we bet on that, we went and asked stan, and he said yes it was.
The point was, I was feeling so humble not reading the list carefully, and from other side It ws so important for me that makes me feel so bad.

ey paanty jan, tarof karrdan oonam ba khoode adaam?
ajab donyaeee to dary, baba ghaboolet darim ke khakie, ama khoob u deserve that ke age donbale chizi hasti begirish, this does not conflict by khaki boodane adam, go for it man, kashki befahmi che megam.

jalebish in boood tanha ksai ke fekr mekonam care mekard about esmesh was u, who didn't eveen look at it ccarefully, in humbly-it ma ro koshteh abji.


It was very nice of Dr, Reedyk to thanx every moorche who came to her lab and worked for her, althought they get money or marks, that is what i called being humbel!

by the way as a result of this writting i got to the point that man yekam ziadi maghzam takoon khoordeh ha,
khodaya khoodemoon ra be daste to meseparam, ba in akhlagha, man bayad hatman ya shaer ya nagahsh meshodam ba in roooheie laatif!!!!!

Anha be peimanhaye khood nvafa mekonand
va roozi arj menahand ke benahayt sakht ast

khodaya mesparamesh daste to, az man nagiresh plz

hey
its 9 oclock
at night at uni, life continoues. can I say continuing? seems funny
any way still trying to find a way to write V(t) as a function of x, I mean v v.s x.
Monday 2p20's exam, wed 4f50 Assign and fri 50's exam,
on 4p70 I could have done better, I need better concentration, at exam I was just writting wat ever I memorized, I couldn't think, which was very dangrouse if it happen again,
the funny joke: handed in wrong assignemnt for p30.
To be a better man: i) more concentration, ii) know wat I am doing at each second,( watching my time) iii) remembering to go trough all assignemnt before I belive I know evry thing. iv) some planning for a week ahead. i think I should probably do planning for my whole month,
v) shuld registrar for gym.
vi) call for driving
vii) taax return

mom is leaving next weekend :( already miss her, not so much in favour of madarbozorg coming back.

IX) most important thing is Do Not PANIC.

x) love u babay lol
xi) roozeham!

forget to say
love u baby babay :)

Lets get back to life with focus and love, with all power I can have to pearchuse my goals
lets have brightest heart that I can becuz never know who would be the next person who might die,
lets focus on moment, and carry on all energy u can
remember that I did it before
When I was in love, and remember if u can put a man together u can put the whole world to gether,
lets make my world with all memories of power and all achivments, lets do some thing that i never did that before,
lets belive in power of love
and ourself


lets belive that we can make it
focus and do ur best, then u can belive in better u
a better man


let6s not make a story of ur ablities lets make it a countinouse fact of ur life
play it to the bone baby

a cute , beautiful smart babay
mooooooch

hame chiz screw up shode,
wih these freeky comp, its like a real holooween, neveshteham az bein mere va axam, khili delam vase axam sookht,
axesh raft
lebasesham raft
poolesham ke raft
kasi ham ke beshe bahash harf zad nist.
nothing really matter
luv is all we need

i should try to luv my self
and remember that all my goal is to study in the way that i haven't ever study to remember that its only 2 month and 20 days + yekam ham adam shodan, say mekonam chizhayee ke mekham avaz konam ra badan benvisam or shayadam:
increasing my concentration
trying to be more ontime
remembering fate and god
remembering that ppl will die, and life is not just this.
and labkhand zadan
trying to lok inside of me
... labe khandan biavar hamcho jam
....



remembr I really want to prove myslf that I can

teh felan

Oct 12 2003
lots of things to talk about lots of missing part
maybe i never talked about them or think, or take responsibility,

knowledge, and power and courage to change whats going wrong, are things i need, = so much love, so i can handel ppl that loved me and love me and have been loving me, for every things even my stupidity,


to be a grown up and being a 24.5 yrs old lady, with ambitouse and power, and heart and fate a girl from middel east who live in canada, a girl who is not ignorant and al;so know how to deal with american, some who is smart and beautiful

my firs plane :
go for O.D my chances? .001 %? how can I increase them?
my secound? ( coule be go for eng, master, or even med school!!!!)
don't want to be a spoiled ahmagh blond kid.


should some how know my self, my power and my weakness and +'s

Y was adamizad too, also Mome,

should be strong and ready to fight, its only 2 month and 20 days.